There has always been a barrel in our lives. We are the care-takers of this barrel, we will put things in it that will make us happy, and we will put things in it that will tear us down. some we are proud of and some well, some are there and we can not change them. As life has been so kind to give us this barrel to do as we wish, I have show it love and put things in there that have shown me the way to live my life. some have been good, and a good share as been bad. all in all I have learned from each of these moments that have been placed in my barrel. some of the moments that I have recently put in my barrel is going to UvU (Utah Valley University) and playing on their Racquetball team for 3 years and some. while on the racquetball team I was placed as the president of the team for those 3 years, granted the first two years where a lot easier than the last year was, but it has been an adventure to say the least. our team was very good this year and will be much better next year, as the program gets back on its feet after a long drop down the the bottom of it's barrel. ever since I started playing racquetball, or I should say ever since Mark, my brother won me in racquetball, and put that fire in me to excel in this sport I have done just that, I have excelled in Racquetball. Now I durring the last month I have been coaching 3 - 4 people each week on how to play racquetball, and know that they are playing the right way. Other moment I have placed in my barrel has been a great success to me, and to those that have helped me on my way. I recently Graduated form UVU with my Bacholors of Science in Criminal Justice, looking for a job in Law Enforcement. durring those days that lead up to that day, where fun and interesting and memorable. Right before Finals, I had appied to graduate a week before the due date was, I was just getting ready to go to class and the graduation department called and told me that I had 2 credits that I need to graduate. At this moment I started to FREAK OUT... so I call Shelena and told her what I had been told and I could hear it in her vioce the rushing emotions of worrie and confusion as if being dropped into the rushing rivers of dispear. in that hour after the call I emailed my counselor 5 or 6 times with questions of "help me help me" requests. by the time I went to class that night, I was feeling like there was no hope in the world. it happend to be that I had my counselor Bobbi for my Professor in that class. once she saw me she came up to me and told me what had happen, and told me that everything was fix and I would be graduating this May. I felt like she had seen me falling and put out her hand helping me to the surfice and putting me back on the road of life. the week before I had asked my supervisor to have the night before off so that I could get some sleep before graduation. I had got that day off, and I was glad to be able to have the time to get so rest so I could be awake for my graduation, or that was the plan. that day came and shelena and I were cleaning our house so that we could welcome my Mother and father in our home. we cleaned and cleaned and as the time escaped us before we knew it my parents were late coming in. so I ofcourse got worried and called them, and they were at Beaver/fillmore area and so we talked for a moment and then I let them go. I figured that they would be geting there shortly after 0100. about 5 or so minutes had passed and I got a phone call from my mother and was told that the truck had just broke down, and now I was really worried. I stayed on the phone with them for a while. they call a tow truck and then called me back once they got to the resting spot of their truck. they had told me where they were and I started on my journy down to get them. it took me about 2 hours to get there and pick up my mother and father. when we got back to my place it was a little after 0500 and I was ready for bed. Graduation day was now here. graduation was a blast for the first hour or so, Pres. Monson spoke and I noticed two things, first when he stood up to go speak, most of those that were there also rose and started to clap, for him. but that is not what I noticed, I noticed that one of my friends that is not a part of the LDS faith did not rise when all around him did. after the talk or encouragement that was in no way talking about the church but only about life, and how to live in the best ways possible. as Pres. Monson was finishing the crowd rose up again and started clapping. at that moment my friend that was sitting at the first stood and joined in the applause. after that moment the day ran together and Boy! was it a long day. my parents and my wife and I went to the lunchen afterwards and enjoyed the small snake that was provided. soon after we arrived home (Pleasant Grove) my parents and I started down to retreve their truck that had be fix. which has supprised us due to the problem of the brake down. The truck broke down and once stopped a fire started in under the hood where the engine was located. my father thru dirt on it to get it out which is not the best thing in the world but is better then nothing at all. I want to thank my mother and father for making that trip up for my graduation. I needless to say enjoyed the Long SRD that I had going to fillmore and back twice. it gave me a lot to think about. later that night we (mom, dad, Shelena and I) met up with Ben & Ellonor Carrick to have a dinner and enjoy each others company until I had to end the night with me going to work. that was a good day, filled with interesting and enjoyable moments.
As the time as gone by and I have been doing little as far as living goes, after graduation, I found myself in a rut. this rut has been getting more and more deep as I have pressed hard and fast to a life that I do not want. an addiction of pride, and self want and come into my life taking me down to the bottom of the barrel where I have tried nothing to escape myself. that changed tonight as I found myself hitting the bottom of the barrel and not liking where I was and what I was doing with my life. I remember many movies that have the line "when was it that you knew that is was right" as if there was one moment that turned the course of this ship they call life. well, I know that there have been many of moments leading up to this point where I have hit the bottom of the barrel and I know that if I do nothing still I will have nothing, and will be going nowhere. so in that, the only way I have to go is up, and I know that this will be hard, and long, but i will do what I can to stay on this journy until I have found my way back to the top of my barrel, filling it with happy moments, and not so many sad ones.
Just for the moment now, Thank you all for helping me with the journy I have so choosen to start. I Love you Family, Friends and all that effect my life.
